It should be a good thing. We have brought down one of them. And it is, but I am so tired. And I keep missing my parents and I wish almost that he were alive so that I could ask him - demand from him information about them. Are they alive? Are they still being held? Did they kill them? And if so, why? What was their reasoning, other than perhaps because of their relationship with me.

I wish -- I just wish that I knew.

In the meantime, I have done everything that I can to keep my mind on work. In most cases it is far easier to do so and to keep moving ahead than if I were doing nothing.

Wishing changes nothing. I must simply do what I am trained to do.

Still no word on Mum and Dad. I wish that I could say we had better news but I suspe but unfortunately there is not much available at all.

There is still no word on our parents. If there wer The DMLE continues to work on the case.

Do you need anything with the girls? As much as I have been at work this weekend, I shouldn't be opposed to helping out with them. In fact, it would be a nice turn of pace.

My parents, Rufus' parents, Dorcas Meadowes. I keep going back and forth between feeling it is a good thing that we have not seen their bodies - after all, they have not come back to any of us - but then I cannot think that they will be returned.

I do not know what to think - or to hope for. I want them returned, naturally, but I do not want them to be in pain for a prolonged period of time - not because of my involvement.

And Dorcas was so young: so young.

This moping about will solve nothing.

Perhaps I should do a bit more exploration. Perhaps I missed something.

Bloo

Collins down -- being taken to St Mungo's as we speak.

Watkins found Meadowes' wand and journal, no sign of her, definitely signs of a struggle. I need anyone that's free down at Euphoria Lane please.

Please let us find her.

If I can do anything, you know you've only to say the word, right?

Let me know if he needs anything. You know how he is, and he tends to not say it sometimes.

I think with Rufus' parents taken also, it - well it's harder to erase the idea that it's because of me, isn't it? They're going after our families.


Tighten the wards, be careful when we're out? We're doing all of these things and beyond that... I have no bloody clue what to do about it.

What do we actually know?

I'm going into the Ministry to help Amelia with some paperwork. If I hear anything I will let you know immediately.

If they are alive -- what could they possibly want with them alive? It cannot be anything good. And I cannot keep thinking of these things - the more I go over them in my head the more I continue to imagine things that -- I just. I need to keep myself together and not to imagine the worst. Elinor and Gareth and Gaheris need me to keep things together for them.

I will keep things together.

Hope. Merlin only knows that she drives me up the wall at times, but this was her brother and I cannot, will not ever wash my mind of those photos.

It shouldn't surprise me. I should be immune to it. Godric knows I've seen enough other horrible things in my tenure here, but this was - I guess this was personal, cause it was one of our people, even if it wasn't an Auror or a Hitwizard.

And I've no idea what to do for her. I don't even know if there is something.

Bloody hell.

Well. I think at this moment the only reasonable thing to do is treat it like it isn't Crouch's son. Frankly, if he's mixed up with Death Eaters - the world's well rid of that.

But... I think I'd best grab a headache potion before I go on further.

I can hardly blame the younger Aurors for being discouraged. After all, I am not far behind them although I have been in this job for much longer than they have been. But there are only so many of us, and against so many werewolves, what options do we have?

I will meet with werewolf services this afternoon and we must put together training that will benefit the most with the least amount of training time. That may not be easy. After all, dealing with angry werewolves is not a walk in the park when you have spent a goodly amount of time training and we will have a month to prepare - only a month.

I may be here until midnight tonight, but we will have a program by no later than Wednesday. We simply cannot afford to wait much more time and to be honest, it is almost a relief to have this to think about.

We had talked about an evening to catch up, I believe. I'm going to attempt to schedule one, in the hopes that nothing will crowd it out - if you won't be terribly offended if something does?

Been home to feed that dog yet?

Please Merlin let us get through the night. And that's all I'm going to write because I almost feel as if writing anything more is asking for trouble.

Two full moons in one month, and with all of the werewolf activity we've had, it doesn't seem likely that they won't be out again...

Happy New Year.